From strong to shaking

Year 2011 was a year of disaster for me. In this year, I started to doubt about my faith. in the year of 2010, the incidence that happened unknowingly. I could believe the church leaders did not think it was a serious issue. Honestly, I did think that the victim should call the police. I strongly disagreed on the leader's decision. We had a meeting with the leaders couple of times. During the meeting, the spirit was there, and I did not want to argue anything during the meeting. However, the leader only wanted to show how discipline he was. All he has done, according to his "righteous" judgement, was strictly following the guidance from the handbook. The problem was, he did not want to, or did not know he should, take care of the victim. It was so sad. This leader was definitely a nice member with highly discipline on rules. However, the love and concern were two attributes that this leader was surely lacking.  I guess Heavenly Father knows that his working style matches the need of the members in this stake.

The problem was enlarged, at least I did think so, several months after the meeting. When I thought everything was set, it was actually not.

Anyway, it's past. And, my faith could not be raised up to the level when I was in the mission field, or being a Branch President. Now, I am only a Sunday member. Honestly, I don't even want to go to church anymore. Just that I have been too nice to people and I don't want to let them down.